Hello fellas !

It’s been a while since I wrote here in this awesome place, it’s been a little rough , and I miss writing, I miss the feeling when ideas just flowing from my head and I just wrote it down so it become something that can be read. I’m not a writer myself (yet, I always want to be a writer) , so forgive me for everything I wrote, and the grammar 😦 I’m not an english native speaker , but I’ll learn to be at least as good as I expected 😀 , even expectations rarely become true hahaha

By the way, Happy New Year! 

Successfully wasted 2017 huh? Did y’all enjoy your 2017? Because time that you enjoy to waste is not wasted at all.

Most peple make resolutions at new year, making a new bucket list, the “new year, new me” thing, planning everything as if they gonna live forever, *eyerolls* well, I’m not saying that it’s bad, it’s actually a good thing to do, but why don’t you just live your life? Enjoy every little things that happened in life and grateful, don’t push yourself too hard on target that includes people’s expectations and opinions. Living without them (people’s expectations) is awesome, you can act and do whatever you want and not giving a s#!t about people’s opinions. Their opinions doesn’t matter.

Life is a matter of perspective, it’s about how we look at things that happened in our life. Life isn’t always easy, there’s rough time like you just wanna curled up in bed with your comfy sweaters and crying all day, no? Is it just me? LOL Let’s back to the track, when something bad happens try to think like “what it this event trying to tell me?” instead of “how could this happen to me?” Maybe when your pinky toe hit the desk it’s trying to tell you that your sight is getting worse, or when someone’s gone or disappear from your life it made you realize that nothing lasts forever.

LOL what am I talking about ^^
See ya!




ketika pena belum terganti keypad, keyboard, dan touchpad

aku terbiasa menulis hari

dalam binder usang yang kumal


curahan hati adalah rahasia

antara bisunya kertas dan coretan tinta dalam diam

senam jantung ketika lupa letak

dan menikmati indahnya rahasia

sayang sekali mereka tak abadi

aku juga lupa

entah dimana dan siapa yang membaca

aku tak ingin mengetahuinya

biar berlalu seperti waktu

toh aku baik baik saja

Minor VS Major Society

Hello again WordPress


I just thinking about how it feels like to be a minority in the society we live in. In my whole life, I’ve never been become a minority, I was born in a Muslim and Javanese society. And I’ve never been get out from that circle till now, twenty years living in this world and always become a part of major society, I know, boring, right?

Becoming majority bring us benefits that major society always have, I mean we have same needs, same purposes, ( I’m not racist, Indonesia is the biggest cultural nation in the world , which have so much different faiths but always beautiful with its diversity) . But being a part of major society makes you less noticeable, something that makes me sad, and people always judge people based on their part of society, a.k.a generalization.

I always want to know how it feels, every time I see on the news, Muslims in western country being bullied because of their minority, I feel bad that I can’t help them and I also feel jealous that my faith have never been tested like them. I want to know how it’s like to be different from the society. Because here, in my own society, I just can’t fit properly. I am not good at social interaction at the first time, I am afraid that people seeing me by general stereotypes they knew. Maybe the stereotypes when become a minority is so much more extreme than majority, but that’s the challenge! Maybe by people looked at me differently, they can see the truly am 😀

Maybe I can change into the better person, that can see both side of majority and minority. Maybe I should get out of this island or even country to understands. But the problem is, I have no money or chance to go 😦

I hope that there’s a time in the future so I can experience how it’s like to be a minority. Amen.

Since I don’t have it, could you please share yours? So I can imagine it 😀

Thanks for reading, Wassalamualaikum..

Yogyakarta , June 2017

Unspoken Thoughts

Aku menatap layar ini sendirian
Berharap menemukan atau ditemukan
Pelajaran baru untuk hari ini
Guru baru untuk ditanyai
Hal baru untuk diminati

Aku ingin terus belajar
Memaknai Apa yang sedang terjadi
Dalam kekacauan semesta ini
Aku ingin terus hidup dalam pembelajaran
Agar aku bisa tumbuh
Dan sedikit lebih berarti dari kemarin

Aku ingin keterbatasanku menjadi semangat menuju dunia tanpa batasku
Membagi Apa yang ada dalam kepala
Tanpa peduli Apa ada yang membaca

Aku pernah bermimpi
Namun aku tahu diri
Jadi kulupakan yang tak bisa kuraih
Dan kutertawai kebodohanku
Mengapa dulu aku begitu jauh

Aku tidak akan mencari arti hidup
Hanya membuang waktu
Kunikmati saja kekacauan ini
Dengan begitu aku hidup

Just it.